F*ck My Heart....

Violence Begets by P.T. Denys

Synopsis: After the death of his brother, Rick St. James quickly finds his life crumbling. The only person who ever cared and actually loved him (besides his kid sister) is gone and his father blames him for his brother's death. What initially starts as neglect and the cold shoulder, Rick and his father's relationship turns abusive. It doesn't help that he is the new kid at school and resident bad boy and expert manipulator Kevin Vincent has his eyes set out on Rick. As he falls in line with Kevin and his minions, Rick learns that he and Kevin have a lot more in common than he thought and that Kevin's secrets are even more horrid than his own. While experiencing their own living nightmares, Rick and Kevin begin to fall in love as they witness the pain and despair in each other. 

Rating: 4.75 / 5

Holy Jesus-f*cking-Christ (excuse me for my language), this book has taken an emotional toll on me. This is not one for the weak-hearted, which at times like these I definitely feel like I am. But honest to God, this book had me going. So to start off, like I said in the synopsis, this story contains A LOT of child abuse directed at two teenage boys. That being said, this book was so damn well-written. It was dark, brutal, raw, angsty... My heart was constantly hammering against my chest as Rick and Kevin's story continued to unfold. I really felt for them, I felt their pain and their hopes and dreams of escaping. I wanted so badly for them to get their happy ending because they so damned deserved it. There were no detailed sex scenes in the book but it wasn't needed. The relationship between Rick and Kevin was perfectly crafted and their love for one another radiates off the pages, whether it be by the way they tend to each other's wounds or the way they know each other so well. But I have to be honest, I didn't cry. I think I was already numbed by all the constant sh*tstorms they had to deal with that by the time I was done with the book, I just felt empty. This book made me sort of hate people...